Inside of each of you, there are sirens, honking horns and gridlock,but there is also peace, joy, contentment. With the help of God, we can do the work and climb the stairs from the negative to the positive.
So to use the cliche given to us by Forrest Gump - Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you gonna get. That is so true, but it's what we do when we take one of those chocolates, good, bad or ugly....
If we are fully relying on God, then we have no fear that He is got it all under control. And even if your brain thinks you ain't gonna make it thru, trust deep down in your heart, your spirit, that you know that you know that you know, that you are walking in the solution right now.
The enemy always fights the hardest when he knows God has something in store. And the devil uses our fear, anxiety, insecurities to get us focused on those things instead of God and His plan and His purpose for us.
So here is my fear today. Would anyone notice I just simply vanished?
Disappeared into thin air?
Are the friends I have too self absorbed to even notice, when I am off my "schedule"?
What if I did fade away, would that be so horrible?
Did I invest much more time, energy and care into people, that just could care less if they gave it back to me?
My heart is hurting, because I don't see a genuine concern for me. I try to be solid, stay consistent, for the most part, doing some of the same things at the same time so that if something was to happen, someone would jump up and say, wait hold on, something isn't right. But I truly did not see that today.
So is the enemy working in my life right now? You betcha!!! Do I care right now...nope.
I am just so tired of being that constant n peoples' lives, being that thing they could set their clocks by. Tired of being here for everyone else, while my life gets put on hold.
Do I believe that I am walking in my solution? yes.....
Do I believe I am walking from negative to positive? yes
Do I believe that God is by my side? yes
Don't despair, if you feel invisible or that you aren't noticable...We all are, just sometimes its God's way of getting your attention about something in your life.
Christina- I got to thinking about this particular post. I had to come back to it and say a few things. I want you to know that YES people would notice if you aren't around. I know without a doubt that I would notice. You have become one of my closest friends. I know that I can trust you with anything. You are a wonderful person from the inside , out.
ReplyDeleteI have felt this way before myself though. I have felt invisible. I have felt like people only love me because they are required. These feelings make a person hurt. So I know that when you wrote this out that your heart was hurting and you felt like you could wring it out like a washcloth. Satan is such a wonderful Liar. He will do anything it takes to make us feel useless and invalid which in the long term makes us leave people behind that in all honesty meant the most to us. Keep Trucking along and continue to do GODS work and you will be rewarded Later on with the most biggest reward for what you are doing in his Glory. We can't make people be a certain way if they dont want to be, but we can stay in charge of ourselves, and I am just here to encourage you to keep trucking along with your walk with Christ. He won't let you down. Love you Christina..
Tina